Many terms have been used to describe Joshua—"imperial commander", "the empire's hunting dog", "creator of resentment", etc. However, Joshua had never settled on a definition for himself; he viewed himself only vaguely as a tool that helps the empire realize its goals. It wasn't until tragedy struck that he began to change and to ruminate on how he defined himself and on what he had done. These ruminations will continue for a long time, and they won't have a clear resolution. Moreover, they will prove to be much more painful than anything he's ever experienced, for there will be no rationalization, no justification to serve as an easy out. Still, Joshua is determined not to run away.